Friday, July 15, 2011

I DID IT ! But still not brave !

Friend !

This is not brave :)

I'm not brave either ..

Although an action like this really brave ><

Hehehe ..

You know ..

I already keep on dragging this action week after week ..

Cause I'm very afraid ..

What if he denied ?

What if he don't even care ?

What if he thinks I'm crazy ?

I think a lot of question like this ..

So this is why I'm not confident enough to do this ..

This comes back to the same thing in the last blog ..

Putting faith and confident in God ..

I guess I took Him for granted again ..

"I'M SORRY GOD !! PLEASE FORGIVE ME !!"

So yeah ..

But I still did it !

I asked him to come to Eklektos Celebration just now before I went to band practice ..

Luckily I saw Arthur !

Or else I'll drag this to the next week again ><

THANKS MY BROTHER, ARTHUR :)

Although I'm really afraid or scare,

But my mind keep telling me ..

Never lose this opportunity to save a person's life ..

I want to bring him to God

Because I know God is searching for him !

I'm glad I did my best :)

BUT !!!

This is the difficult part .. 

When I asked him to come to my youth,

You know what he ask me ?

"Why?"

Do you know this word "WHY?" can make you speechless ??

I'm almost like lagging there ..

But in my mind I know I can't be speechless ..

So I quickly say 

"Err just come and visit .. I hope you will come :)"

He just knock his head ..

This question "Why?"

Makes me lost all my confident and faith ..

I need to ask Pastor Noah and Calvin about this ..

OH MY !!!

I'm really afraid if he saw me un-confidently to ask him,

He also don't wanna come ..

This confident is very important man !

Especially have confident in God :)

PRAY PRAY PRAY !!! 

Really hope he will come this week :) 

I wanna be his first good friend and change his life ^^


PEACE OUT :)

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