Darkness to Brightness

What was Darkness ?

What I see yesterday was really very dark ..

Yesterday ..

The sky was dark ..

Yesterday ..

The scene was dark ..

Yesterday ..

The people was dark ..

Everything went dark too ..

What was in my mind ?

I blamed God ..

"God, why you wanna do this ??"

I though after I went to His house ..

Everything will turn colourful ..

But no ..

I was wrong ..

Darkness came even darker than before ..

What was in my mind ?

I blamed God again ..

"God, why you wanna do this ??"

When I'm serving to God ..

 

I felt like bowing down and CRY OUT LOUD !

But I can't..

I don't wanna show my poker face ..

But after awhile ..

When I'm alone ..

I finally know what God is trying to tell me ..

What was in my mind ?

"God, what do you wanna tell me ??"

Suddenly ..

There's a calling ..

" Michelle "

" Michelle "

Was that me ?

I don't know ..

It's from God ..

"God, are you searching for me ?"

"God, are you missing me ?"

Finally I know why was my day full of darkness ..

God broken my day so He will heal my day ..

"God, You're finding me :')   "

When I know this ..

I was heading back home ..

Everything went colourful because of God ..

Everything I saw ain't black and white ..

It's full of colours

Full of JOY

Full of HAPPINESS 

God, 

You've been searching for me ..

I'm sorry ..

God,

I LOVE YOU ♥

PEACE OUT :D ♥

Awesome 20 August ♥

Guess what ??

What's so special about today ??

Today is one of God's creation's Birthday :)

Who is she .. ?

THAT'S ME! =D

One night before my birthday ..

I'm watching my favourite Taiwan artist series ..

♥MY LUCKY STAR♥

Then suddenly ..

My brother, Jeson Huang called me ..

You know what he said ?? hahahah ! xD

"Eh eh eh .. 1 minutes before 12am .. We don't talk first .."

Then we both really silence and that's very akward and FUNNY ! XD

Then after 1 minutes ..

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MKAY !!! YOU 15 YEARS OLD ADY !! "

That's the sad part .. 

I'm happy that  I'm full 15 years old already

but the way they wishes me make me feel like I'm getting older and older T.T

NEVERMIND !!

I'll get use to it xD

Then the 2nd person who called me is my sister ALICIA CHONGGG :D

Hahahaha I felt very touched ..

The one surpise me most is the 3rd person

JEREMY WONG XIAN YONG !!!

Hahahha it's kinda surprising that He'll called in the middle of the night ! 

Thanks duckie ^^

And then the 4th one is SANDRA, XIANG LING !!!!!

Happy to hear from you oh Xiang Ling ^^ 

The day next, as in 20 August ..

I went to school .. 

My classmates start to wish me Happy Birthday ..

My babee, Chjing Chjing gave me her present ..

Then Joleen also gave me hers ..

She woke up early just to cook 15 hotdogs for me ..

That's very touching :')

Then when it's first recess ..

I'm finding Carmen but she's not there .. 

So I went out and talked to all my friends who blessed me ..

 

 Suddenly Bx Lee closed my eyes and they all sang birthday song for me ..

When I opened my eyes and turned around ..

Cassandra helding a big card and Carmen is helding a WHITE CHOCOLATE CAKE !!!

I'm really suprised and very touched !!!

I never felt so love♥ before :')

Then we all ate the cake ..

Then after band practice then also sang birthday song for me :)

Then at cell group ..

In the middle of the cell ..

Esther suddenly said her eyes was very painful ..

Then she went out followed by Kimmie ..

When Chinese Tea was praying ..

Suddenly Kimmie came in and Esther was helding a chocolate cake ..

Oh sweet Eddie !!

It really surpised me !

Then I wishes my birthday wishes then I blew the candless ..

Then Jeson Huang called me to sit in the middle and closed my eyes ..

The all started to say something about me one by one ..

I started to cry cause it's very touching ..

Before youth, many people gave me their presents like

♥ Garrr, Sista Alicia, Stephie, Easter, Melvin Wong, Nelson Chai ♥

Some blessed me and gave me hugss ^^

Then after youth ..

Kimmie and Jeson suddenly dragged me inside the hall ..

Then she told me that her brother was gonna killed her grandmother and I was like OH MY GOWSH ??

But then suddenly Carmen was helding a BIG SPONGBOB !!!!

SWEETEST EDDIE !!!!

I was so shocked !!! 

[Me and my family - E6]

 [My yellow world ♥]

 [Thank you everyone for the wishes]

[Love you Cassandra ♥]

Father Lord, 

I'm really grateful to be in your kingdom 

And I'm grateful to have all this wonderful people ..

I felt a lot of love when I'm with You ..

Lord, 

Really thank you for everything ..

I know that You love me very much and God,

I love you very very very much too ♥

You're my Healer, my Saviour and my Creator ..

I LOVE YOU, GOD ♥

PEACE OUT :D ♥

I DID IT ! But still not brave !

Friend !

This is not brave :)

I'm not brave either ..

Although an action like this really brave ><

Hehehe ..

You know ..

I already keep on dragging this action week after week ..

Cause I'm very afraid ..

What if he denied ?

What if he don't even care ?

What if he thinks I'm crazy ?

I think a lot of question like this ..

So this is why I'm not confident enough to do this ..

This comes back to the same thing in the last blog ..

Putting faith and confident in God ..

I guess I took Him for granted again ..

"I'M SORRY GOD !! PLEASE FORGIVE ME !!"

So yeah ..

But I still did it !

I asked him to come to Eklektos Celebration just now before I went to band practice ..

Luckily I saw Arthur !

Or else I'll drag this to the next week again ><

THANKS MY BROTHER, ARTHUR :)

Although I'm really afraid or scare,

But my mind keep telling me ..

Never lose this opportunity to save a person's life ..

I want to bring him to God

Because I know God is searching for him !

I'm glad I did my best :)

BUT !!!

This is the difficult part .. 

When I asked him to come to my youth,

You know what he ask me ?

"Why?"

Do you know this word "WHY?" can make you speechless ??

I'm almost like lagging there ..

But in my mind I know I can't be speechless ..

So I quickly say 

"Err just come and visit .. I hope you will come :)"

He just knock his head ..

This question "Why?"

Makes me lost all my confident and faith ..

I need to ask Pastor Noah and Calvin about this ..

OH MY !!!

I'm really afraid if he saw me un-confidently to ask him,

He also don't wanna come ..

This confident is very important man !

Especially have confident in God :)

PRAY PRAY PRAY !!! 

Really hope he will come this week :) 

I wanna be his first good friend and change his life ^^

PEACE OUT :) ♥

Self-Confident in God and yourself :)

Last time,

I told my self to DO it ..

But I didn't ..

I guess I'm not CONFIDENT enough ..

Self-confident is very important ..

If you're not confident enough to do it,

You will never gotta do it right ..

I have a friend ..

She dreams to play guitar on cell group ..

She keep on practicing on her guitar skills ..

But one thing She's missing .. 

Confident in God and herself ..

She lost her confident on the day that her dream will finally come true ..

Just because of missing one little thing ..

How important is God and having confident in our life!

Friend,

I know you know I'm talking about you ..

Yes !

It is you !

Right now,

STAND UP !!

Pray to God !!

Tell Him what you need ..

YOU NEED HIM MY DEAR FRIEND !!

Listen to me ..

I know you can do it ! 

It's one of your dreams to serve God ..

God loves you so much ..

Don't let God down :)

This is real ..

Never lose your self-confident ..

Once I also lost mine ..

I really wanna bring a guy that I never talked to ..

A guy I don't know to come to E6 and EC ..

But I fail ..

Whyy ??

Just because I lost my confident in myself and God ..

Just a little thing can cause you fail to save a person's life ..

How terrible is that ?

So right now ..

Just pray to God ..

Calm your heart and don't care about your temptation ..

He's presence is always with you :)

He's always there !

PEACE OUT ♥

Thanks God for EVERYTHING :)

I really REALLY thanks God for 

EVERYTHING ♥

 [MY SWEET HOME]


Brother, Mother, Father, Sister


Aren't they cute ??


They're my family :)


They're so awesome ..


Thank you God for them :)


This day is on Daddy's Day!


Daddy, you're the King of the day !


Lord, You're the most high !


Happy Daddy's day to both my daddy! :')

God is always there :)

[PRAY♥]

Sometimes I feel God is just beside me :)

 

Hahaha

Everytime I pray,

I feel someone is just beside me listening to me ..

(maybe it's my mum curi curi listen==)

But no !!

I locked my door :D xD

Yeah ..

Never stop pray to God :)

GOD is always there for you ..

 

Just wanna tell you all .

Even when you haven't start pray for what you want,

He's already knew ..

But He's waiting for you to FIND Him :)

Sometimes I took Him for granted oh :(

Bad me ><

But I'll pray for Forgiveness :)

[YESTERDAY]

I have almost one hour

Spending time with God :)

I confess all my sins 

And surrendered all :)

WEE ♥

 

Hehehe :)

Yeah, then suddenly Jeson came in and talked with me :)

Yer ..

Jeson,

If you're reading this ...

I'm really sorry..

Coz im not really a good core :(

I didn't try my best nor respect you ><

I only dare to say out here ><

I'm sorry ..

 

You're really a good cell leader :)

THE BEST XD

[BACK TO THE POINT]

Just remember ..

God is always there ..

He will never EVER leave you :)

Maybe you'll think 

"There are so many people out there will He even notice me ? "

Right here I wanna tell you 

YES !!!

Of all 100,000,000,000,000 people out there ..

God choose you :)

He's searching for the broken-hearted :)

And also search God with brokenness ..

God,

Is waiting for you :)

"NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH PRAYERS"

-Calvin Lee Jia Wen

PEACE OUT :D ♥

The old me =)

Suddenly,

I think of the old me ..

The one that ALWAYS says fault words ..

The one that ALWAYS SIN !!

Haha actually it's kinda random remembering all this stuff =)

Oh well ..

Haha I still remember after I baptist,

I never went back to church ><

It's NOT GOOD !!

Do not put that as an example! Seriously ><

Okay ..

I remember I always out with friends to Damai metro ..

No reason going there actually ==

Haha 

And also Yoyo =D

Yam cha with friends and sitting there tryin' to find something to do ..

Haha ..

Well but it's better I became a Holy Christian ..

I still can't say I'm 'Holy' enough 

but I will be =)

now I'm only focus on my God =)

I start to serve God in ministry !!

The best part is ..

I'm SINGING !!! 

*SCREAMS* xD

Haha I know alot of new friends, awesome friends, and somehow SPECIAL friends :)

They're awesome ..

They always be there for me, 

always comfort me :)

They're so nice to me too !!

I feel safe,

kinda feel like I'm home :')

Awesome right ?

And started to feel the presence of the Lord :)

GOOD START !! 

This is not my ending ..

But this ..

Is just my beginning :)

PEACE OUT ! :D

Family Outing to PULAU !! XD

PULAU !!!

This is epic xDD

Hahaha

9am ..

We woke up and ready to go ..

We went to Jesselton ask go to pulau ..

WOW !!

The weather is so nice man !

The wind blow through my hair !

Awesome !!

When we reach there ..

Me and my cousin quickly took off our clothes and JUMP into the sea xD

Awesome right ? xPP

First we [DIVE]

There Nemo, WATER SNAKE !!!, and many kind of fishes :)

Secondly we play the [Smiley Parachutes]

This is the real parachute that me and my cousin played ..

But the person inside is not me nor my cousin ..

Then we play the [Banana Boat]

Cousin, me, my brother, my mum then my grandmother :D

Then me and my both sister we built sand castle :D

Quite fun actually :P

Haha on the way home,

I saw Lim Chee Yaw

Then at night we have family dinner again ^^

So fun !!

I never been so happy with my family since I'm primary ..

Haha PRAISE THE LORD !!!


PEACE OUT :P

The BEST of the BEST ♥

AHHHH !!

This is MICHELLE KOK for crying out loud !!!

 Today is AWESOMENESS !!!

Firstly, 

Cherish, Kimmie, Michelle Lo, Ian Lo and Esther Chea

came my house at 9am ++

just to cut some photos ..

Well that's sacrificing time :')

And then,

me and Kimmie went to Kyrugma at 3pm

Then Carmen came and we're waiting for Cherish coz she's printing the photos ..

And suddenly JESON came !!

That's kinda scary coz we have finish the card yet ..

So it's very scary but exciting xD

After cell,

me and Esther went down and take the OREO CHEESE CAKE

and SURPRISE Jeson :D

And the card too :P

He's shock ! I mean SUPER SHOCK XD

When the celebration was starting,

 

 I sing ON STAGE !!

Before that, Carmen and E6 girls pray for me ..

I feel touched :')

But then when I started singing ..

I'm not afraid anymore !! 

I feel confident and free ..

All my friends are cheering for me down the stage :')

When it's finished celebration,

we all sang Birthday songs to Pastor Noah :D

Then OUR E6 MASTER PIECE !!

OUR HARD WORK !!

The video was shown after celeration ..

Jeson said he's so touched by all of us :)

Haha Jeson,

hope you like I mean LOVE the video :)

We all made this for you ! :D

Haha have a nice day ^^

PEACE OUT xP

NERVOUS ON STAGE @@

[THIS IS BIGG !!!]

I'M

GONNA

SING

ON

STAGE

ON

SATURDAY !!!!!

This is the first time ever I'm gonna serve God on STAGE XD

I'M SO EXCITED UNTIL I CAN'T BREATH @@

Haha

Hope I'll be fine on that day ..

HALLELUJAHH :D

Teehee