What's pass, it's past :)

'Sorry parents .. Sorry church .. Sorry friends .. And SO SORRY GOD !

I've disappointed you all' :'(

  Okay .. Why will I say that ? Urgg !! Of course ! Major exams ! You know yesterday is a holiday for PMR-ers to have a rest.. well.. there are three days but my point is .. Yesterday as I'm resting at home by playing The Sims on Facebook ... Oh ya By the way, THE SIMS SOCIAL ROCKS !! Add me as your neighbours please ! xD Okay as I was saying .. Playing The Sims Social on Facebook, Carmen called me and said 'Hey! Do you want the answers for PMR Sejarah' And I said 'Oh okay. Sure' As I'm marking, my mood slowly drop, my faith slowly drops and guess what ? NO DON'T GUESS ! I won't share my results here == But I can tell you that it's not good .. NOT GOOD AT ALL !! :'(

  Then I asked my mum whether I can go to Carmen's house .. The reason I wanna go because 1. To play The Sims 3 on PC !!! xD 2. To brighten up my day? 3. Because I'm boring ==  Okay that wasn't my point too ..

 
  Gosh .. My blog is getting boring-er and boring-er @@ .. I'm kinda speechless person.. I don't know how to start a topic so ya .. DON'T FORCE ME TO DO SOMETHING I'M NOT GOOD AT IT >< Seriously :] .. I am who I am what ? :) That .. wasn't my point too .. OKAY ! This post is getting pointless .. So yeah .. 

  My point is .. What's pass, it's past :) Stephanie told me this 'DON'T LET CIRCUMSTANCES SHAKEN YOUR FAITH!' She called me shout out loud yesterday! It helps :) Really ! Thanks Stephanie ! ♥ Although my results ain't good but .. PMR results can't judge a person .. So if whoever tried their best, I'm sure God can see it :) God will bless you with something you couldn't expected ! So yeah .. Haha

PMR-ers ! Good Luck in the following exams !

JIA YOU! ADD OIL! TAMBAH MINYAK! :D
 

PEACE OUT ! :D ♥

MAJOR EXAMSSSS @.@

 PMR

UEC MOCK

  UEC

  Gowsh ! Three exams coming right up and I don't even scare ! Gowsh ! Is this how should I act ? @@ Obviously not >< Hahaha Okay .. I don't like exam .. Government is just making the world end earlier ! They're wasting the paper and they have to print hundreds, thousands, millions or BILLIONS of paper for ALL PMR-ers .. That super MONSTERIC scary @@ ..

  Oh well .. I didn't really get to interact with my books @@ Seriously .. Camilla keep on say 'Michelle, why are you so steady ?' I'm like 'What what? Oh okay O.o' Okay that's not my point .. My point is .. I DIDN'T STUDY AT ALL ! What am I thinking ? Fun? Holiday? That's too fast >< .. You know a lot of people says 'Appreciates school life.. Trust me :) ' I'm like 'SCHOOL LIFE? It's like living in dungeon SERIOUSLY ! I love to go school not because of studies, is because of my friends :D Get to have fellowship with them, chit-chat with them .. I love sosial-ing with people :) But I'm a lil shy sometimes ><

  You know .. I hate temptations >< A lot of distraction keep on distracting me from my books T.T .. Outing with youths ♥, hang-out with them, having fun with them ♥ That's what I want ! I really love, enjoy being with them .. They're my family :') But URGG !! Major Exams !! I hate you PAPER ! :'(

PEACE OUT ! :D ♥

Crying while Writing ..

  The first time ever ..

I sinned sinfully again .. 

  

The first time ever .. 

I cried while writing my blog ..

  The first time ever .. 

I HATE a person after I became a holy Christian ..

  

  I'm so hurt right now ..

While I'm writing this ..

" What if You're blessings come through rain drops?

What if You're healings come through tears?  "

Just finished talking with Oscar on phone ..

I sinned ..

I scold a fault words ..

Just then I cried ..

If I'm angry,

Satan is happy ..

I can't let him happy that easily ..

But I just can't stand it !!

I'M REALLY VERY ANGRY !!!

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I hate myself ..

Who says my life is wonderful ?

Who says my life is awesome ?

NO NO NO !!

You are W-R-O-N-G !! 

Sometimes I asked God .. "Why do You brought me into this SAD WORLD? " Why does He want me to be here ?? I doubt His plans for me .. Whenever I have problems, I really really REALLY hate to face it .. But I'll still face it .. I always told myself, NEVER TURNING BACK, I'M DARE TO FACE EVERYTHING MYSELF and I CAN DO IT MYSELF ! All this MYSELF MYSELF is so selfish .. Where's God ?? Where's your Saviour ?? I'm to overestimated myself .. I though I can do all things myself .. I though I can face everything myself .. I though I though I I I !! All this I is so selfish .. Where's the Lord ?? Where's your Healer ?? All these years, I've been living in a selfish world .. That's why I asked God why did He brought me into this SAD world .. Then I know .. It's not He's fault at all .. It's my fault .. God You've brighten my life, You've heal my brokenness .. How wonderful You're Lord !! Sorry God for all 15 years I've been hurting You, doubting You and rejected You .. Thanks God for bringing many wonderful youth people to make me know what's the reason that I've been brought to this world .. To save and to help .. I'm here to help the ones who need help .. That's why God had sent me here :')

What Faith can do ? ♥

   "Without faith, it's impossible to please God" Hebrews 11:6

   If you have a little faith, even if it's a faith like a mustard seeds, I believe you can move a mountain .. I bought a book few months ago .. But I didn't manage my time to read it .. It's called "Growing Deep in Faith " ..I only read few pages but I learn a lot!

  I also inspired by Jayesslee .. They sang "What Faith can do" in Harvest City .. Alicia introduced this video to me in kyrugma .. It's touches me and I love that song .. "I've seen dreams that moves the mountain, hope that doesn't ever end ....... That's what faith can do " Such a beautiful lyrics !

  I wanna be brand new .. I wanna start all over again .. This what faith can do .. It changes my life .. It makes me strong when I'm weak, it makes me confident when I'm afraid .. Sometimes I lost my faith when I need it .. I pray pray pray ..

  I can't write anything strong in here, I can't write anything long .. I ain't good writer and I ain't good preacher .. But I'm here to share God's miracles .. I'm here to share my experiences and thoughts for my God ..

 

[Having Faith in God, nothing is IMPOSSIBLE]

[What Faith can do - Jayesslee]

Enjoy!

PEACE OUT ! :D  ♥

Darkness to Brightness

What was Darkness ?

What I see yesterday was really very dark ..

Yesterday ..

The sky was dark ..

Yesterday ..

The scene was dark ..

Yesterday ..

The people was dark ..

Everything went dark too ..

What was in my mind ?

I blamed God ..

"God, why you wanna do this ??"

I though after I went to His house ..

Everything will turn colourful ..

But no ..

I was wrong ..

Darkness came even darker than before ..

What was in my mind ?

I blamed God again ..

"God, why you wanna do this ??"

When I'm serving to God ..

 

I felt like bowing down and CRY OUT LOUD !

But I can't..

I don't wanna show my poker face ..

But after awhile ..

When I'm alone ..

I finally know what God is trying to tell me ..

What was in my mind ?

"God, what do you wanna tell me ??"

Suddenly ..

There's a calling ..

" Michelle "

" Michelle "

Was that me ?

I don't know ..

It's from God ..

"God, are you searching for me ?"

"God, are you missing me ?"

Finally I know why was my day full of darkness ..

God broken my day so He will heal my day ..

"God, You're finding me :')   "

When I know this ..

I was heading back home ..

Everything went colourful because of God ..

Everything I saw ain't black and white ..

It's full of colours

Full of JOY

Full of HAPPINESS 

God, 

You've been searching for me ..

I'm sorry ..

God,

I LOVE YOU ♥

PEACE OUT :D ♥

Awesome 20 August ♥

Guess what ??

What's so special about today ??

Today is one of God's creation's Birthday :)

Who is she .. ?

THAT'S ME! =D

One night before my birthday ..

I'm watching my favourite Taiwan artist series ..

♥MY LUCKY STAR♥

Then suddenly ..

My brother, Jeson Huang called me ..

You know what he said ?? hahahah ! xD

"Eh eh eh .. 1 minutes before 12am .. We don't talk first .."

Then we both really silence and that's very akward and FUNNY ! XD

Then after 1 minutes ..

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MKAY !!! YOU 15 YEARS OLD ADY !! "

That's the sad part .. 

I'm happy that  I'm full 15 years old already

but the way they wishes me make me feel like I'm getting older and older T.T

NEVERMIND !!

I'll get use to it xD

Then the 2nd person who called me is my sister ALICIA CHONGGG :D

Hahahaha I felt very touched ..

The one surpise me most is the 3rd person

JEREMY WONG XIAN YONG !!!

Hahahha it's kinda surprising that He'll called in the middle of the night ! 

Thanks duckie ^^

And then the 4th one is SANDRA, XIANG LING !!!!!

Happy to hear from you oh Xiang Ling ^^ 

The day next, as in 20 August ..

I went to school .. 

My classmates start to wish me Happy Birthday ..

My babee, Chjing Chjing gave me her present ..

Then Joleen also gave me hers ..

She woke up early just to cook 15 hotdogs for me ..

That's very touching :')

Then when it's first recess ..

I'm finding Carmen but she's not there .. 

So I went out and talked to all my friends who blessed me ..

 

 Suddenly Bx Lee closed my eyes and they all sang birthday song for me ..

When I opened my eyes and turned around ..

Cassandra helding a big card and Carmen is helding a WHITE CHOCOLATE CAKE !!!

I'm really suprised and very touched !!!

I never felt so love♥ before :')

Then we all ate the cake ..

Then after band practice then also sang birthday song for me :)

Then at cell group ..

In the middle of the cell ..

Esther suddenly said her eyes was very painful ..

Then she went out followed by Kimmie ..

When Chinese Tea was praying ..

Suddenly Kimmie came in and Esther was helding a chocolate cake ..

Oh sweet Eddie !!

It really surpised me !

Then I wishes my birthday wishes then I blew the candless ..

Then Jeson Huang called me to sit in the middle and closed my eyes ..

The all started to say something about me one by one ..

I started to cry cause it's very touching ..

Before youth, many people gave me their presents like

♥ Garrr, Sista Alicia, Stephie, Easter, Melvin Wong, Nelson Chai ♥

Some blessed me and gave me hugss ^^

Then after youth ..

Kimmie and Jeson suddenly dragged me inside the hall ..

Then she told me that her brother was gonna killed her grandmother and I was like OH MY GOWSH ??

But then suddenly Carmen was helding a BIG SPONGBOB !!!!

SWEETEST EDDIE !!!!

I was so shocked !!! 

[Me and my family - E6]

 [My yellow world ♥]

 [Thank you everyone for the wishes]

[Love you Cassandra ♥]

Father Lord, 

I'm really grateful to be in your kingdom 

And I'm grateful to have all this wonderful people ..

I felt a lot of love when I'm with You ..

Lord, 

Really thank you for everything ..

I know that You love me very much and God,

I love you very very very much too ♥

You're my Healer, my Saviour and my Creator ..

I LOVE YOU, GOD ♥

PEACE OUT :D ♥